leading life in slow motion....

12:00 noon: wakeup, lie still in bed...regret not waking up early to go for a walk or study, think about xams-what if the datesheet comes n xams start after 5 days? oh, shit!

1:00p.m.: get out of bed, roam around the empty house for a while planning things to do for the day, search for the newspaper, go into bro's room to check out his same dvd collection(which hasn't had any new movie in the past few months.) to see if i've missed out on some movie(negative), go into the balcony, come back into the room, switch on the tv...

1:30p.m.: go to the bathroom, freshen up, switch on the geyser, sit in the room with the newspaper, read the horoscopes, comic strips,etc., surf through the channels on tv, play sudoku...

2:00p.m.: go for a bath, stay in for half an hour, come out,watch tv, read a book, have lunch, go to sleep or watch some more tv...

5:00p.m.: get a guilty feeling about wasting up life, get over it, try to bug sm clg frnds by asking abt the xams, no news.

8:00p.m.: go down to hang out with friends, bore then with my pathetic life, make fun of each other, bitch about some other people, laugh n laugh n laugh.

10:00p.m.: come back home, go online, try to find something interesting....nothing found, go offline, have dinner.

12:00 midnight: make the bed, watchtv or read a book, put an alarm for 7 in the morning.

3:00a.m: finally doze off....zzzzzzzzzz.....

12:00 noon: wake up,lie still in bed, regret not waking up early...


this is how pathetic my life has become in the past few months. i get this constant feeling that a good-for-nothing parasite might give me a competiton in being a more functional part of this universe. coz being a parasite is what it has to do! things have become so dull lately that even a single hint of activity scares me...wil i be able to do it? will i have the stamina for it? oh, god! what if i screw up? it feels like i should be sent to this island where tom hanks was in 'cast away'. it wont make any difference anyways....i'm barely in touch with any human n that way, surviving each day will b a challenge!

god! help me!